That's a lie. But I do love my birthday and I have been looking forward to it since the beginning of the new year (aka 2 months ago).
I can't believe I am 20 years old! It is kindof a crazy thing to think about. Me. 20. Can I just say weird. I feel like I am still in High School. But I'm not. I am about to graduate from COLLEGE!!! Okay, so it's only my Associates. Either way though, it is kindof a BIG deal.
These next couple of months are going to be crazy. Midterms are almost over (I have two tests next week) and then I have big papers and little assignments, and finals, and then I am done. 6 weeks from tomorrow I will be walking across the stage, graduating with my Associates Degree. I feel like that is such a big accomplishment. It means I actually did something. I haven't just wasted my two years here. I don't know. It makes me feel good (whatever helps me sleep at night... Haha).
Some things I am looking forward to this year (of me being 20)
1. Graduating from BYU-H with my Associates Degree
2. Visiting Nicole in Utah before she leaves for her mission.
3. Going home for the summer.
4. Finding a big girl job.
5. Figuring out what life has in store for me.
6. Maybe having a big enough girl job to buy a used car
(depending on what I decide to do with my life).
Now me graduating with my Associates does not mean I am done with school. I would definitely like to get my Bachelors Degree too, but for now I am not quite sure what the future holds. I'm not sure if I want to transfer to another University, or if I want to stay here in Hawaii. Maybe I might take a break from school and travel, nanny or teach English abroad. Maybe I might go work with Disney for a few months. Or perhaps teach at a pre-school near home. Maybe I will get a job as a nanny on the other side of the continental United States. Really, I have no idea. I am open to all possibilities. So, I guess we will have to wait and see.
Regardless of what happens in the future, I am thankful for today.
I am thankful for my mama and daddy that wanted me all those years ago.
I am thankful for my mama who had me, even though it may not have been her favorite birth.
I am thankful for my mama and daddy who loved and raised me.
I am thankful for my mama and daddy who continue to love and support me.
I am thankful for all of my sisters and my brother for making my life so awesome.
I am thankful for my wonderful friends.
I am thankful to be alive.
I am thankful for all of you.
I love birthdays, and I am thankful that I am still around to celebrate mine. :) And I hope to celebrate many many more.
Here's to two decades of life. :)
All the smiles, tears, love, heartbreak, friendship, and memories have been so worth it.
Southern Belle in Paradise
