Tuesday, June 14, 2011

The Result of Denial

Remember what I said about being in denial in my last post? Well... it turns out I am in a little bit more denial than I thought... And this, this tornado, is the result... 

Welcome to Exhibit I...


Now let me explain... I do work 8 hours a day, 5 days a week, and after 2 of those 8 hour days I babysit, for anywhere from 5 to 7 more hours. So, in my defense, I don't have a whole lot of down time, but with paying for college, and gas, I don't particularly mind working so much for the amount of money I make. I know that is just an excuse for me to allow my room to become such a disaster... but that is my excuse, and I am sticking to it...
Welcome to Exhibit II.


And here is Exhibit III.


Exhibit IV


And last but not least... Exhibit V.


Today I realized why I let my room ever get like this. I am in DENIAL. By leaving my room the exact way that it is, it keeps me from cleaning it. And by refraining from cleaning I am refraining from sorting. And by not sorting I am not packing. If you are still following my logic, then you may have realized that after this process of not cleaning, I am refusing to completely accept the fact that in 85 days I am moving... Across the Country... to a small island where I will live on my own without my mommy and my daddy... I know... I should really just accept that I am really moving, but I'm not ready yet, so here my room sits, a complete and total disaster, worse than I think it may have ever been in my life, reminding me of my denial.

Southern Belle in Denial

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Has finally come to the realization...

That I leave for BYU-H in THREE months!!!! Oh my goodness. I'm not going to lie... I have been in complete and utter denial... It's not that I am not excited - really I am - but I'm not sure I am ready to go live on my own... on an island... across the country... Yeah, yeah, yeah. It's Hawaii. It will be great! I know... but I am about to have to be the farthest away from home I have ever been in my LIFE! I mean, I have been on vacation without my parents before, only once by myself, but then I always come home... and it's only ever been for a couple weeks MAX... Oh my goodness... It's kind of a scary thought. I won't get to come home whenever I want. I won't get to hang out with my sisters and brother. I won't get to talk to my parents whenever I want, or just get a hug from my daddy when I need it. I won't get to spend the day with my mom because I don't want to go to school. I won't get to skip school ever... I won't get to spend time with my friends... Sure I will have my phone, and facebook, and skype... but it just won't be the same. I have seen lots of people go off to college and they did fine... but what if I can't. What if I end up so home sick that I have to come home early. What if I get island fever? Lots of things to think about with this big move coming up, and I'm sure I will do fine. I'm sure I will love it. Heck! I'm even sure that at times I will be so glad to be on my own - not that I don't love my family... ;) I guess this is what I get for being in denial, and refusing to accept the facts, but I know I'm not the only one. Well, thanks for listening to me ramble. I am really going to miss you all.

Southern Belle in Paradise... well almost

Monday, June 6, 2011

These are a few of my favorite things...

1. Letters
2. Thursdays
3. Friends
4. Movies
5. Coloring Books

First is letters. I absolutely love letters. Any letters. :) Mostly I just love getting mail. :) I love that anxious feeling when you see the mailman's vehicle sitting outside your house, or if I've missed that, the feeling of opening up that mailbox hoping for something exciting to be inside. :) As soon as I get out that mail I look for my name on all of the letters, catalogs, postcards, you name it; if my name is there, I guarantee there will be a smile on my face no matter who the particular item of mail comes from. :) One of my favorite kind of letters though, is the kind from a missionary. :) I love to read about the spiritual experiences, and personal growth both in general as well as in the gospel. I also just love hearing from Elder L. :) I love reading stories about his week. I love seeing the effect the gospel and being a missionary has on his life. I love the random spanish thrown in that I am left to translate. I love every single bit of it. :) Another reason why I love letters so much, is because they always come when I am most in need of a little pick me up, and they always do just that. :) After just seeing the envelope from Elder L. I light up like a glow stick. :) Seeing that a letter has come in the mail just makes me so excited, and so happy. :) When I am at college I think I will send letters to my friends and family so that they can too experience the joy of receiving a letter. :)


Second comes Thursdays. With Thursdays come a weekly email from Elder L. :) E-mails make me just as happy as letters do. :) Thursday is his p-day, or preparation day, so he gets to write letters and emails to friends and family, do laundry, go to the temple, basically prepare for the coming week. :) I love emails for all of the same reasons I love letters. :) One reason that differs from letters though, is that emails are expected on Thursdays (for now while he is at the MTC - Missionary Training Center) around midmorningish :) so I can always count on something exciting come Thursday. :)


Third is friends. :) I love my friends. I love having slumber parties, and talking into the wee hours of the night. I love laughing until I can't breathe, sometimes until I cry. :) I love the amount of happiness that friends can bring into my life. :) I know I've already said it, but I love my friends. They are wonderful, andI can always count on them to bring a smile to my face. :) They have become a huge support system to me over the past year and I am SO grateful for them. :) Without them, I don't think I would be the same person I am today. I absolutely love my friends. :)

Fourth is movies. :) I love most all movies, but I do have some favorites that help me to be happy, and make me feel better. They are The Curious George Movie, Hercules, Tangled, and Spirit. If you have not seen all of these, you need too. They are like necessities. :) I used to watch some of these practically every day, and the best part is that I never get tired of them. :) These movies bring a smile to my face. In Curious George and Spirit I love the music and the animation, and I guess the overall feel of the movie. In Hercules and Tangled I also love the music, but instead I love to sing along to them - loudly and obnoxiously on occasion. :) What can I say... I'm a dork. :) -- I would put more pictures, however they are making me want to throw my computer at the wall...


And last but not least is coloring books. I love to color pictures. :) I can spend hours coloring every single inch of a coloring page and not get bored, in fact I color when I'm bored. :) Coloring is also like a stress reliever for me. Some people like to run, some like to eat, and some like to hit things, I however like to color. :) I know, I'm strange, but it just makes me so happy. :)


So those are just a few of my favorite things. :) I have lots more but it's late and I have to work in the morning, so I should probably get to bed soon, so nighty night. :)

Southern Belle in Paradise